Not-So-Epic Fail

Maybe you are wondering why I haven't posted the Song Of the Month for November. Well, I guess everyone fails sometimes. I have a song. I have most of it recorded. I have all the lyrics and tune set up. But two weeks ago, I got laryngitis. And I am supposed to be performing in a semi-professional show, the Washington Christmas Revels, in less than a week. So I have been attempting to baby my voice, and even so, I cannot sing a worthwhile note to save my life. So I haven't been able to finish the song. I considered putting it on here in its unfinished state (you, know, work in progress?)  but I guess my ego is too big, because I can't seem to make myself do it. It doesn't sound right yet. I know it probably never really will even when I do finish it. See, I have the sounds in my mind, but I am limited by my amateur piano skills, and my amateur equipment. This song is sort of a smoky jazz number, and I can picture the swishing of the soft steel drumsticks, the sliding thrum of the upright bass, and the syncopated piano rhythms behind the vocals. But I can in no way simulate that on garage band. There isn't even a patch for a swishing drum sound. So, maybe that is making me drag my feet on putting the song on here unfinished.
Plus, I also failed with getting the kids together to sing the lyrics for their songs. I am hoping to do that this week, but with my voice shot, I am not sure they will be able to learn the songs well enough to record them. We will do it as soon as we can. So it's not so epic, but I definitely failed with the Song of the Month for November.
Well, at least I can post my original November song's lyrics. They might not make musical sense by themselves, but it's better than nothing. This song was first inspired by my wonderful women friends. I have been having a rough patch with my son in high school and such, and sometimes I find myself withdrawing when things get overwhelming. But my friends won't let me just stew. They draw me out, they remind me what is important, and they let me know that I am loved. I really appreciate that about them and am so thankful for their wisdom. So I started this song with them in mind. But of course, there is also my loving husband, who does the same thing in a different way. He is always steadfastly standing by, supporting me through the hard stuff, and I am also so thankful for him. And it was November, a time when we traditionally should be thankful, so that was perfect. Still, I wasn't in a "happy-happy-joy-thanksgiving" sort of mindset, so my song took a darker twist. The result was a sort of jazz/spy mashup. I don't know where that came from, but that's what happened. So here, at least, are the lyrics for "You're On To Me". The rest will be coming as soon as I get my voice back enough that I am not worried about my performances coming up this weekend.

On To Me by Zoe Alexandratos November, 2012 

When I'm hiding out it seems / You find my secret lair

You won't let me hole up somewhere / Thinking no one cares

Every time I think I'm all alone / You track my every move

I guess that you are on to me

I try to disguise my feelings / But you always know

You reveal my secret / Identity: my cover's blown

And no matter how my plans get foiled/ You're there to see me through

I guess that you are on to me

You're on to me / You've got my number / You are on to me

Can't fool you, you are on to me

When I start to shut down / You have ways to make me talk

When I shut you out / You know just how to pick my lock

When my scheme's exposed / And I'm feeling low / You're there to pick me up

I know that you are on to me

You're on to me / Please hang on to me

Don't let me escape / I'm glad that you are on to me

When the jig is up and I'm / My own worst enemy

You believe I'm redeemable / You help to set me free

You're my touchstone / You're my plot twist

You're my ally in the end / So glad that you are on to me